The end of NaNoWriMo that is! It's been a wild month and the end is in sight! I have the best writing partner in the history of the universe katanisk and she has really kept me going! So have the awesome people who have read what I've written and offered encouragement and commentary.

As of right now, I'm at 36,950 words. I'm past my highest score from 07! I'm happy with my story and my characters. For the first time, I feel like I have my ducks in a row. I know what order I want my books to happen in, and what I want to happen in them for the most part.

I recently went through something of a dark patch where I lost a lot of faith in myself. I was sick often and my grades were going downhill fast. I swear I have the best friends in the world. You guys help me so much! I haven't had a headache all day!

Christmas is coming up! I gotta buy stamps so I can send cards to you guys!

I'm going to open a special December deal soon where you can get a two character smoochy bust shot for cheap! I may also sell kisses from my own characters. (IE: Pay (ammount) for a smooch from a character from the list I will put up. Or even a mystery kiss! You won't know who until you get your sketch.) What do you guys think?

Also, check out this explodingly adorable picture someone on FA did for me!
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I DID. I didn't sleep until well after one PM when I got home. I went to the bank, the post office, the grocery store, the book store, walmart, another bank and FINALLY my house.

I have to go up to the school tomorrow and buy my books since they didn't let me last time. HHHGGHNFFFMMM I go back to school Friday. Boooo.

Eagle One finally showed up and put up four more sections on my tower. It started to rain really really bad so they had to go home. Hopefully they've gotten their act together because they came TWICE in the same week. A NEW RECORD.

>COMMISSION STUFF<
I'm offering a new type of commission called a Doodle Page. It includes one full body shaded picture of your character and then a bunch of loose expression sketches and whatever else covering the rest of the paper. FIFTEEN DORRAH. BUY ONE.

You can now find any info on commissioning me here, on my personal website: http://www.freewebs.com/wolfy-t/commissionme.htm

Uuuugh I'm ready for this week to be over. I started it out on my face. All the stress here at home is over but now that the coast is clear, my body's having a nice breakdown so that it can be vulnerable and motionless in peace. I slept all day, have hardly eaten. I had to cancel one of my commissions because I can't draw worth a crap in this condition.

I FINISHED THE EARS. I put them and the tail in a box and sealed them up. All I need is my money and the person's address.

I'm going to undergo the huge event of CLEANING MY ROOM again.

Things to do:

-Clean all the notebooks out of my trunk and put them in tubs for the attic.

-Put my furs in the trunk.

-Clean out all three bookshelves

-Clean out Dresser (AGAIN)

-Clean out computer desk

-Buy a small shelf(s) to put my FAVORITE FAVORITE DOODADS on and put everything else in a box

-Get new metal cabinet for important papers and crap

-Get a litter box with a top on it and tear the cat-shaped toilet paper holder out of the floor so there's room

-Organize all tangible gift-art into a bigass binder I can look at whenever I like and make room on my walls

-Clean out from under the bed

-Clean out the closet (top and bottom)

-Do SOMETHING about my jewelry

Upside: I might go see Hellboy 2 with Kathie this Friday if I managed to get un-sick. Me and Brad were going to do something or other this week possibly maybe. We have to take Charlie for an allergy shot tomorrow. Poor doggie and his bad skin.

I wish I had more electrical plug things in my room. That'd be superdeduper handy. Oh, well.

Aaaauuugghhhhhhh, so what have I been up to these past few days (weeks)?

Did you know spit can get pickle juice off wood? It can! It's magic! It's now! It's SPIT!

Stressors:

-HOUSE JUNK. I'm sure anybody who's talked to me lately has heard me BAAAWWWHHH about this inheritance junk. I'm going to be owning a house that...I'm not going to have any control over? Um. K. Whatever. My uncles are in charge of renting it out to folks. The rent should cover both the tax and the insurance if anybody will actually rent the thing. It won't be a drain on me and I'll get a small profit. This does not make sense to me. It doesn't work like that. KARMA HAS TO COME IN SOMEWHERE, PEOPLE. I'd ask for more information but I hate bothering folks and Uncle James scares me shitless.

They're supposed to call today so that we can go over and get some of the furniture to put in David and Curt's room. It's just hard finding a time where ALL OF US can be available at the same time. Tina is visiting to help load things.

-Old Computer is Old. My computer is finally showing its age. It's picked up several kinds if ITD (like STD's for computers) things that I either can't get rid of or find. It's slowing down and I don't exactly have a bunch of stuff on it. I can't really buy any of the new games that are out. I'm afraid it's going to start to fall apart. it's got some kinda important stuff on it.

I don't think I'd have any trouble affording a new one. I'm just not sure what to get. I wouldn't mind it being able to run SPORE but it's not a must-have. It just seems like a good standard to judge some of the newer games by.

-Scoliosis. My nephew Curtis has been diagnosed with this disorder. I've seen the X-rays and they aren't pretty. I feel horrible for him and David because they were looking for somewhere to live and now THIS comes up. This is going to take months and months to sort out and pay for after the surgery. Those of you who do the praying thing please pray for him and my mother because she has this obsession with making other people's problems her own.
(Sound familiar?)

-Insomnia is back full speed but last night I managed to fight it. Pray for me a little?


Things to go YAY for:

-I've got TWO commissions coming at me now! I'm making a pair of cat ears for a fellow called Menmeth and good old Frank has hit me up for another illustration...once he figures out what he wants. XD I'm patient!

-I have mastered the art of making a grilled cheese sammich WITH THE STOVE. You guys have no idea how freaking tickled I am over this. I can make a grilled cheese ANY TIME I WANT. And put BACON in it. I am awesome. Love me.

-It's no secret that my personal hygenie isn't really up to par. These past few days though, I've been all kinds of on the ball. I have this new banana/coconut milk body wash that smells like sunblock and is thus somewhat...addictive. Whatever works, right? It makes me feel better all over and I can let my hair down out of that bandanna. XD As much as I ENJOY looking like a stoner, I like prittyhairs too.

-Church! Me and Mom have been making little trips on and off to church. She's just never well enough to go and I'm really excited that she's decided to visit my church. I miss it so much. I know you guys are like " WELL IF YOU MISS IT SO MUCH, JUST GO, YOU DUMBASS HEATHEN!!!!!" but it's not that easy. You don't know me OR my house, so shut up.

-I have a new candle to burn! IT SMELLS SO GOOD. It kind of covers up the cat pee smell.

-My Uncle Bill doesn't hate me. This is a plus. Yay for me!

-I've been reading books again! I forgot how much fun it was just to sit down and read what somebody else has already done. It makes a Wolfy happy!

-I've also been WRITING more. I've been working on the second draft of my vampire novel (Fangs 'n Fords - working title) and people who I've shown it to seem to like it so far. I've just now gotten to the fun part.

-Been getting to hang out with Brad a lot more. We've discovered the best pizza place on the face of the earth and we've made a habit of renting from netflix and having mini marathons. I've been neglecting it this past month because I've been dealing with things that make me feel like I've been hit by a truck, but THINGS WILL GET BETTER.

-I got to see WALL*E and it was the cutest freaking thing ever to exist. Ever. The end.


All for now!

...and it's been a while since I first saw you.
It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again.
And it's been a while since I could call you.


Some nice people from my church visited today and brought me a New Member's package. It's a tad odd since I joined May of last year, but better late than never! I got a directory with PICTURES, a CD of our choir singing, and a buttload of pamphlets. And they knew who I was! I felt so wanted. Like when I got that hand-written card. When I look at the pictures in the directory and listen to the music on the CD, I remember why I wanted to go there to begin with. I remember why I stayed.

I wanna try to get back into the swing. I'm sleeping TONS better now. I'm getting a little better with dealing with the whole guilt thing. I've been visiting friends more. I've still got things I need to improve on. I need to eat better. I still feel kinda blarch. Showering more would be nice. I just don't have the ENERGY to primp up every day. I've let go the whole deal about mamaw's house. I don't care any more. If we get money for it, we get money for it. If not, it's off our backs anyway.

I'm getting better at staying away from the computer. I'm spending time at town and with people and in the yard. I don't have nearly as many bad dreams about fake chats and confusing RP-related stuff. I'm getting better at just letting go.

My friend Kathie ( catgirlgoth  ) is going in for surgery today and tommorow. She's getting a new defibulator put in her chest. Those of you who pray, pray for her.

Also, a great big CONGRATS to katanisk ! She graduated today! GOOD JOB, KIT! I knew you could! Now just go to collage and don't be a failure like me and drop out one semester in! I love you!

I just want to say thanks to thelonewolf_27  for commissioning me so often and making me feel like a real artist!

I wanna go back to church.

It's been a while since I could say that I wasn't addicted and
it's been a while since I could say I love myself as well.
It's been a while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do.
And it's been a while, but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with You.