"Your oddness is like a beautiful flower that eats faces, isn't it? Fascinating in it's absurdity." ~ Cobo

There was a crazy freak storm today! 8( I had to shut off the computer and by the time it cleared up, it was time for church.

I MADE IT OUT OF THE DRIVEWAY this time.

Pooted over to Kat's and then we MAGICALLY TRAVELED TO CHURCH. I really enjoyed the service again. The music was even better than the first time and really spoke to me. I think I'm going to enjoy being able to get out and around on Wednesdays. It's laid-back and I don't have the weird 'robotic ritual' feeling I do on morning services. I'm going to learn and worship and feeling good doing it. The traffic is surprisingly easy at 7 something at night on the stretch of road my church is on.

After church, it wasn't all the way dark and the traffic was okay so we made a MAGICAL STOP IN WALMART where we acted retarded and ate supper. McDonalds was almost completely empty and it was kind of eerie being in Walmart at that hour. There was no roar of voices or screaming infants and there were towers of re-stock boxes set out.

POST-APOCYLIPSE WALMART.

Came home and hung out at Kat's house for a while before coming home and visiting with my sister while she's down from TN. And now, it is time for bed.

*edit- LOL WOLFY FORGOT SPELLCHECK. Is better now.

General public: WOLFY. WHAT DID YOU DO YESTERDAY.

8D Well, gang! I went to get the Good Ship Misery inspected! I followed mom up there and unlike the last time I followed somebody to a place of automotives, I did not follow the wrong car to the other side of town. Turns out, my horn is broked. They think the fuse is out or something so dad said he'd fix it. They still gave me my sticker. Also, D8 did you know it costs five extra dorrah to have window tint? I did not! Wolfy was not happy so Wolfy is thinking about getting that crap taken off!

After that, I was pretty much on my own after bawwwing to mom about my horn dilemma. I went on a MYSTICAL POST OFFICE ADVENTURE. This isn't so much just making an epic title for humor's sake about dropping off a package. My MYSTICAL POST OFFICE ADVENTURES (or MPAs) are just that. Our post office has this habit of MOVING. I swear it does. I'll take one rout to it one day and it will be there. I take the same rout another, and it's ONE BLOCK OVER. Now. Somebody got the bright idea to place said post office in the shallows of the downtown ghetto. This means I'm navigating the Ship through TEENY TINY BADLY LABELED STREETS that sometimes turn out to be ridiculously shaped driveways. After some choice words and panicing, I finally managed to locate the mystical moving post office.

COMMISSION MAILED!

While leaving, there was some hullabaloo (caused by me 8'D) at an intersection where nobody knew who's turn it was to go. I made some old woman mad. She'll get over it.

It was still pretty early so I swung by the book store to wait for Mcdonalds to start serving lunch-type food. I got my first Neil Gaiman book! It's called Anansi Boys and it's pretty good so far. I really enjoyed getting to wander around the store on my own and sit in the floor, taking my time. I always feel antsy when I'm just looking and have somebody with me. I hate lagging folks. It always inspires and worries me looking at the newer titles on the shelves. There's always that "CRAP! I thought about writing that!" that all writer's experience and it bums you the heck out. But then you get to read it because it's something you like anyway.

THEN, I drove to Mcdonalds. There wasn't a very long line and since I've gotten my muffler fixed, the wait with my window down wasn't excruciating. I could even hear my Reliant K CD. I acquired lunchins and DROVE AWAY INTO THE SUNSET...SUNRISE...Whateverhappensbeforenoon.

I chilled at the house for a while and Kat calls. LET US GO TO CHURCH TONIGHT says I and she's like 8D K! So I go pick her up and come back home. We goof around and I get a shower until it's time to leave.By this time, my brother has come home and for some UNKNOWN REASON parks his work truck behind mine, takes the keys, and leaves for the movies in the other car, leaving me trapped in the carport of a bazillion other manless vehicles.

SO.

We didn't get to go to church. BC Instead we had a short fellowship at home and continued hanging out until they got home at some late hour, past the time for Kat to take her meds at home. GEE THANKS DAVID. YOU ALMOST MADE MY FRIEND SICK.

THEN I DIED UNTIL THIS MORNING. The end.

I had a very nice morning! Ever since Wednesday, I've been trying to do something out of the house or interactive with people every day. I think it's doing me some good!

Thursday I ran around with Kat at town and it felt good to do whatever we wanted. I got the next Warriors comic book "The Rise of Scourge". KITTIES YAY.

Friday, I hung out with Brad and we went to see Batman which was AWESOME.

Saturday I just recuperated and was a LAZY BUTT. AVATAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR.

Yesterday Kat came over to visit and we chilled. I cut the sleeves out of one of my shirts and made a HOMMADE TANKTOP and now I feel manly. BEHOLD MY MANLINESS. BEHOLD IT. And there were ants all over my windowsill. I HATE ANTS. I swear I'm not bug-phobic but I'm well on my way. Every little itch I felt last night was OMG ANTS *Wallowthrasfreakout*

I want a new windowsill that doesn't have huge cracks in it and smell like poinson. 8'C Tear.

THIS BRINGS US TO TODAY. MONDAY.

Got up around seven because we had to take the dog to get groomed around eight. He's always dklfjsdfds in the car because he never knows if he's just going to get a shot or be ABANDOOOOONED for a couple hours. I hold him while mom drives.

THEN I came home and got ready for my own amazing town adventure. I drove by the collage here in my town. It's a distant branch of the one I went to a few years ago. I got some information from them. I'd really rather drive ten minutes instead of fourtyfive. Soooo much easier on gas. And easier to park. IM THINKIN ABOUT GOIN' BACK U GUYZ. Only for two classes at first though. I went in too fast, too deep last time and wasn't prepared.

After that, I went to WALMART. ALONE. I had my list of four or five items and I wandered around and GOT THEM ALL plus a few extra things to decorate my room. I got this neat little relaxation fountain and some fake ivy to go around it. It makes me need to pee.

I ate breakfast/lunch at McDonalds and happened to run into an old friend from high school. We ate together and talked about random crap for a good hour and a half. Then I headed to check out and ran into my aunt. I got a hug and checked out.

And I did it all before lunch!

Each day this week, I've been managing to write a little more on my Stupid Vampire Novel. So I'm proud for that.

After another graceful sobby break-down in front of my uncle with witnesses, I was convinced to try out the X-treme life nights at my church. I figured it would be easier getting in and out with less people. Sunday morning is really hectic when your church is right off a really active highway and you suck at driving.

I enjoyed the service. I already liked our youth leader Bro. Jerry but never got to really hear him save for the opening prayer before we all split off to our usual Sunday school classes. He's a good speaker. I really enjoyed the music. It was REALLY REALLY LOUD and the base made the soles of my feet and my chest rattle but I could hear the words still and that's what's important. We even got to do some interactive dorky dance hand-shake thing. XD that was fun.

I jumped like a scared rabbit two or three times before it started because people kept startling me. I'm high-strung like that 8(; THERE WERE MAGICAL RAINBOW GLITTER SQUISHY STOOLS.

I am a beggar,
You are the table.
I am so helpless,
God, You are so able.
And when I get turned around, You change my direction.

Cuz you're so perfect,
I'm so broken,
but here You come with arms wide open!
Chasing after me down every road
You're always waiting there!

And I,
can't get away, can't get away
Can't get away, can't get away
I can't get away, can't get away...
I keep running into You!

...and it's been a while since I first saw you.
It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again.
And it's been a while since I could call you.


Some nice people from my church visited today and brought me a New Member's package. It's a tad odd since I joined May of last year, but better late than never! I got a directory with PICTURES, a CD of our choir singing, and a buttload of pamphlets. And they knew who I was! I felt so wanted. Like when I got that hand-written card. When I look at the pictures in the directory and listen to the music on the CD, I remember why I wanted to go there to begin with. I remember why I stayed.

I wanna try to get back into the swing. I'm sleeping TONS better now. I'm getting a little better with dealing with the whole guilt thing. I've been visiting friends more. I've still got things I need to improve on. I need to eat better. I still feel kinda blarch. Showering more would be nice. I just don't have the ENERGY to primp up every day. I've let go the whole deal about mamaw's house. I don't care any more. If we get money for it, we get money for it. If not, it's off our backs anyway.

I'm getting better at staying away from the computer. I'm spending time at town and with people and in the yard. I don't have nearly as many bad dreams about fake chats and confusing RP-related stuff. I'm getting better at just letting go.

My friend Kathie ( catgirlgoth  ) is going in for surgery today and tommorow. She's getting a new defibulator put in her chest. Those of you who pray, pray for her.

Also, a great big CONGRATS to katanisk ! She graduated today! GOOD JOB, KIT! I knew you could! Now just go to collage and don't be a failure like me and drop out one semester in! I love you!

I just want to say thanks to thelonewolf_27  for commissioning me so often and making me feel like a real artist!

I wanna go back to church.

It's been a while since I could say that I wasn't addicted and
it's been a while since I could say I love myself as well.
It's been a while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do.
And it's been a while, but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with You.